Enough
(For Jesus, my light in shining armor; and Nancy, my brave pathfinder)

Oh oh….

chorus

You brought daylight
To my darkest night
You showed me the doorway to freedom
In my lonely dreams
Nothing’s as it seems, til
You brought me to the King of the Kingdom

 There are never enough words to go around
There are never enough ways to say “I love you”
There will never be enough days to count the stars
Our God spread out,
and told us we can reach them.

 We know that we’re worth enough to die for
And changed enough to want to live forever
And if we wait long enough we’ll see the face
Of the crown bearer
Who told us we could wear one.

Chorus-
Bridge:
Our days may see a distance between us
But our hearts are never far away
Ohhhh

chorus

Pieces of Me
(because we all struggle with surrender…..)

I didn’t know I wasn’t seeing you in color
It’s always been shaded in gray
All of the questions surrounding the doubts
If I dig in my heart will I pray you away?

 How many times did I want to fall at your feet?
Surrendered, to be held in your arms
When will I come to you and offer defeat
Will you comfort me in my storm?

 Take me, break me, and rebuild me like new
Take me, breath in me so I’m covered by you
Soften my edges, sharpen my view
So the jagged pieces of me create a picture of you

 How does a soul get so wounded?
Broken pieces tied up and stained
Didn’t you see me when I was alone?
Please pick me up, loosen my chains.

 Chorus
Bridge
Oh my God, I am your child
Good or bad, hungry or wild
I’ve never known a love to go this extra mile
Can I stay…a while….

 Chorus

Tears Of Joy
(this is a song about a journey and the miracles we encounter along the way)

In the middle of the red sea
In the center of your miracles
I stand still; I know you will meet me on the other side.

In the wake of all my fears
When my heart has finally swallowed
That you are real; I can feel you right here by my side
chorus:
And when I cry tears of joy
Overwhelmed by all you are
When nothing in me carries sorrow
Oh my soul gives you praise

Winter winds can swiftly change
Summer seems at such a distance
I know you’ll bring; a sheltering cover from the outside

repeat chorus

In the driest of the desert sands
Between Egypt and your promises
I’ve looked back; all I’ve lacked is the faith that you were on my side

Chorus 2X

music & lyrics by Laurel Bailey Lundberg
copyright July 2006

Rend Your Heart
Joel 2:12

Rend your heart, and I
will tear apart the sky

Wide open, wide

Rend your heart, and I
will tear apart the sky

Wide open, wide

I will send down righteous rain
to wash your sins away
Oh Holy one surround us
Like clouds cover peaks of a mountain
Oh righteous one command us
Like the sun radiates over the sea
Oh my Lord I return to you with all my heart
Even now, with all my heart

LBailey-Lundberg 8/2004

Your Design~

 Oh when the days were all stories and rhymes
And up on the tallest of shoulders you’d ride
For your reward heard a goodbye song
Close the door and it’s gone.
Oh-The first mask goes on.

The lie stretched between all the shattered and dreams
Always searching for something too good to believe
You slipped out the backdoor, and nobody knew
You didn’t know what to do
Oh, so the mask became true.

I said
Little girl, little girl shed your disguise
Tear off the lies that are blinding your eyes
See all the stars, how they shimmer and shine
Love, that’s your design, oh love that’s your design

What do you do, you’re facing of a wall?
No hope before, look behind and you’ll fall
A cry to the heavens, can you help me stand?
I reached down with my hand
Your mask became sand

Little girl, little girl shed your disguise
Tear off the lies that are blinding your eyes
See all the stars, how they shimmer and shine
Love, that’s your design, oh love that’s your design

 LLundberg 10/08

Beautiful Emanuel

I did not hide myself
Where could I go that you would not see?
I did not close my heart
Instead, I let it bleed, I let it bleed.

It is no simple thing
to follow after you this way
I ‘m always torn in two

By the words I say, words I say

Chorus:

You keep showing me your face, and go on calling out my name
There is no deeper peace, covered by your grace
I’m healed– My beautiful Emanuel

I gave my desperate heart
Once so far beyond repair
I laid it in your hands
You held each tear, held each tear

I don’t know what to say
To tell you how I feel
I found your boundless love
It was right here, right here

Bridge~
Footsteps side by side
Or sometimes lifted high
God with us, you are God with us

(Repeat)

 

Copyright; Laurel Lundberg 7/31/08

Only One

How can I be so nonchalant about you
In my rush to claim my innocence
I watched the tears and blood rain down your face
Evidence of grace
will you save a drop of red for me?

Let’s pretend for just a moment
That I’m the only one you see
let’s pretend for just a moment
I’m the only one in need
Would you still die for me?
How can I be so nonchalant about you
In my rush to claim my innocence
I watched the tears and blood rain down your face
Evidence of grace
will you save a drop of red for me?

 When I am shaken by any brazen wind
it blows me from my knees
Gold and gilded idols
become the breath in me
Are you still nailed to Calvary 

Let’s pretend for just a moment
that I’m the only one you see…..

LBailey 8/06

Do I?

L.Bailey 12/05

I sat in anticipation of the skies to fall
I hid my starvation behind a huge wall
of stoic resolve.
I wandered aimlessly tripping over defeat
and pondered secretly my needy conceit
to be found complete
never dared ask or believe
chorus-
Do I make you laugh
Do I make you sigh
Do I make you shake your head
and wonder why?
Do I make you cry tears of joy?
Do I? Do I?

I’ve read all your words cover to cover
I’ve heard all the stories of love one another
I need the grace you offer
Fear holds me down but love sets me free
which one do I crown and give victory?
What’ll my new name be?
Daughter to a king
 chorus-
I will bow down, I will humbly kneel
All I ask is you show me your real
Oh be real

And tell me do I make you feel?
Chorus 2 X

Believer
music & lyrics by L. Bailey 3/28/07
(God woke me up with the this song… It’s written for my husband when we were dating)

Underneath a darkening sky; where it’s all cold and gray
Your hurt lays inside you from painful seasons of change
You wanna give into fear; cuz’ it’s easy to hold

Wind whistles through canyons, separating what once was whole
But love, don’t you see that I’ve come and I’ve built you a bridge
To carry you, carry you homechorus~

 

Believer, just you wait; believer oh won’t you try
Believer; lift all your fears and your doubts
I’m the One who brings you to life
Take a look at how deep is my love and mercy
Believer, oh, believer, believe in Me.

I know you’ve been afraid; and you’ve felt so alone
but if you’ll raise up your hands in a heart sweet surrender
I’ll give a peace like you’ve never known
chorus~

Swimming in memories….

It’s funny how some memories in my mind are linked to sounds, some to smells, or even an emotion and that the mere essence of any of these can intrusively trigger even the most deeply hidden to be suddenly thrust forward. I realize that knowing this is not anything new in the way of a scientific breakthrough, but I’m constantly amazed at how my own brain manipulates me without my knowledge. This impetus of memory can occur without warning, and transport me back in time almost against my will, surrounding me all at once with the familiar echoes of past sights, sounds and smells.
The hollow ringing of shouts and laughter that bounced off the yellow and brown tiled walls of the crowded indoor swimming pool at the YMCA are at once conjured up even though I’m thirty-something years and a thousand miles away, doing nothing more intriguing than adding bleach to my load of laundry. But as I catch that scent, I can suddenly smell the strong chlorine doused water; I can still feel the chest heaviness of being water-logged and exhausted from the joyful play of my own completely and beautifully choreographed water ballet.
My Dad was there. He loved to swim and was always taking us swimming, especially in the summertime when we would go to places like Saratoga Hot Springs where the sulfur ridden water tasted funny, but was a warm and comfortingly shallow light blue. Today he’d been coaxing me to jump to him from the side of the indoor pool. It was a moment of truth and trust as, with arms outstretched, my four year old legs pushed with all their might to catapult me from the edge of safety into his arms, my entire mission focused on missing the water itself. I was almost successful-having only grazed the water as I clung to the security of my Dad’s neck. I was then graduated to the diving board. It seemed so high! But reassured by my previous leaps, his encouraging voice and outstretched arms, I trusted; I jumped. This time I didn’t mind the water; I knew he was there to catch me.

When the memories of those days come back to me, it’s with a soothing comfort. Not just because it was from a time when I felt safe and loved; but it serves to remind me of the man God created him to be-the man I know he is capable of being…..my Dad.

All because of a load of dirty laundry…..

 

 

6/29/05